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Showing posts with label photos. Show all posts
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
3rd cleanse...week 3
I have been sleeping SO WELL. It's amazing. For the past 3 days, I've actually woken (is that a word? Sounds so awkward) up 10 minutes before my alarm sounds. I've been lying in bed, awake and ready to start my day. It is such an amazing feeling. I feel so revived and stress free, and NOTHING in my life has been altered but the addition of Isagenix. I still have an incredibly rushed and stress-filled life. I still have 3 kids who morph from angels to demons in seconds. I still have a full time job, homework assignments & projects to help with, and 3 different sports to shuffle (one of which I coach).
And yet, I seem to be able to handle it better, because I am rested and resilient.
I just re-read my melt down post, and would like to apologize for my momentary loss of control...but I'm not going to. I'm not sorry for anything that happened, for anything that is happening, or anything that may happen to me on this journey. It is what it is...and the uncensored, ugly truth of my story is what will help me (and hopefully others) remember that every struggle makes me stronger. Every obstacle, melt down, incredible feat and event stands as a testament to my accomplishment.
In case you're not aware, I've signed up to do a 1/2 marathon in February. February 19, 2012, to be exact. I'm kind of starting to freak out about it. I need to kick it up a notch and get my butt moving! I know I can do it, I did it 2 years ago, but I was in such better shape and I had a friend do it with me. See? Here we are at the finish line...
This time, I think I'm going solo.
Yeah...freaking out just a little.
I need to keep reminding myself that no success comes without a lot of hard work or pain.
I want them.
I want the results that I know come from the blessing, the result that I know I will never achieve just by want alone.
Now if I could just figure out how to make the days a little longer so I could find time to start working out....I think I'll use my new found rested mind & body to my advantage and start waking up 45 minutes earlier!
And yet, I seem to be able to handle it better, because I am rested and resilient.
I just re-read my melt down post, and would like to apologize for my momentary loss of control...but I'm not going to. I'm not sorry for anything that happened, for anything that is happening, or anything that may happen to me on this journey. It is what it is...and the uncensored, ugly truth of my story is what will help me (and hopefully others) remember that every struggle makes me stronger. Every obstacle, melt down, incredible feat and event stands as a testament to my accomplishment.
In case you're not aware, I've signed up to do a 1/2 marathon in February. February 19, 2012, to be exact. I'm kind of starting to freak out about it. I need to kick it up a notch and get my butt moving! I know I can do it, I did it 2 years ago, but I was in such better shape and I had a friend do it with me. See? Here we are at the finish line...
This time, I think I'm going solo.
Yeah...freaking out just a little.
I need to keep reminding myself that no success comes without a lot of hard work or pain.
"PAIN & SUFFERING ARE THE BLESSINGS THAT NO ONE WANTS"
I want them.
I want the results that I know come from the blessing, the result that I know I will never achieve just by want alone.
Now if I could just figure out how to make the days a little longer so I could find time to start working out....I think I'll use my new found rested mind & body to my advantage and start waking up 45 minutes earlier!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
So What's my Story?
I've had a few messages on Facebook about my story and how long I've been struggling with my weight. I figured, I could write them all the same answer, or I could just point them here to read my story along with you.
Once upon a time, I was born. In 1977 to be exact. I am the 2nd eldest of 6 kids. During my early childhood, weight was never an issue. I was a skinny beanpole.
In my late teen years, I put on a little weight. Not so much that I was fat, but enough to become self conscious and have my mom talk to me all the time about my eating habits. I was a size 10-12. Oh, what I'd give to be in that size again!!! I graduated high school in 1996. See...here I am.
Directly after high school, I joined the Army. I had 9 months until deployment, and spent some time with the sergeants training for boot camp. But I was bored, despite already having a job, so I started working at Kohl's. Shortly after starting at Kohl's, I met my now husband. We knew right away that we were soul mates (insert the awww's). After 3 months of dating, and confirming that we knew we were to be married one day, I made the choice to not sign my final Army enrollment forms.
We were married when I was 20. My husband had full custody of his 8 year old son, so I became an instant Mom. Our first daughter was when born when I was 21. In order to survive and pay bills, I worked the night shift and my husband worked days. Since my step-son was in school and our daughter was a newborn, I ended up being awake in a catatonic state for 18-20 hours a day.
I ate to stay awake.
A lot.
And so began my "real" struggle with weight.
When my daughter was 9 months, we moved from IL to AZ. I didn't know anyone, but adjusted to our new home, and got pregnant with my son.
After my son was born in 2001, I started my dieting regime. I tried Metabolife, Herbalife, Apple Cider Vinegar, some Chinese tea, Weight Watchers, Curves, and even Isagenix for a week or 2.
Yeah, the diet market made thousands off of me, and I failed to complete each and every weight loss attempt. This is me in 2003 at my brother's wedding.
I am in the purple...why did ANYONE allow me to wear that dress?!?! (as a side note, all the kids there are mine! Aren't they cute?!)
Anyway, so as you can see...I had gained a lot of weight, and wasn't doing a very good job of losing it.
I hit an all time personal best (worst) at 254 pounds, but it never stopped me from trying to lose. My problem was, and still is, that I get successful losing 10-20 pounds over time, but in 2 months, I'd gain 20-30 back.
In 2005, at my all time high, I got pregnant with my last daughter. I'll never forget my OBGYN telling me that I was way too fat. Every time I went in for a check up, I was reminded and scolded for my weight. That was the ONLY pregnancy that I watched my weight with, and when I had my daughter, I was actually 10 pounds less than my pre-pregnancy weight.
After my daughter's birth, I knew that losing weight was possible. I did my best to watch my eating. My motivation? My sister's wedding. There was NO WAY I was going to do a repeat of my brother's wedding photos.
No. Way.
In addition to healthy eating, I used to work out a lot. I joined a gym, did Nutri-Systems and then Jenny Craig. By the time her wedding came around, I had lost a total of 40 pounds...in about 11 months. Here is our picture at her bridal shower & me with my youngest at the wedding.
So, fast forward to today...I've been able to keep MOST of the weight I lost off, but feel like a yo-yo when I step on the scale. Try as I may, I cannot seem to dip below the nasty 200 number or freaking size 18 pants. It drives me crazy.
So, when I heard my Aunt telling me how much faith she has in Isagenix, I thought I'd give it another try. After all, in all honesty, I didn't give it a fair shot 10 years ago when I tried it, and I defiantly didn't have a personal coach to help me when I needed it.
Today I am more mature. More determined. More controlled. More deserving.
Today, I truly believe that I am worth the effort. ME. I am worth the end goal and I deserve to be healthy and happy. Of course for my kids and husband, but also for ME.
So, here is the last of my before pictures. I feel confident and determined that I will never cringe at my picture again as I do so to every single one in the past.
This WAS me struggling with my weight.
I cannot wait to show you how I look in 6 months!
Once upon a time, I was born. In 1977 to be exact. I am the 2nd eldest of 6 kids. During my early childhood, weight was never an issue. I was a skinny beanpole.
In my late teen years, I put on a little weight. Not so much that I was fat, but enough to become self conscious and have my mom talk to me all the time about my eating habits. I was a size 10-12. Oh, what I'd give to be in that size again!!! I graduated high school in 1996. See...here I am.
Directly after high school, I joined the Army. I had 9 months until deployment, and spent some time with the sergeants training for boot camp. But I was bored, despite already having a job, so I started working at Kohl's. Shortly after starting at Kohl's, I met my now husband. We knew right away that we were soul mates (insert the awww's). After 3 months of dating, and confirming that we knew we were to be married one day, I made the choice to not sign my final Army enrollment forms.
We were married when I was 20. My husband had full custody of his 8 year old son, so I became an instant Mom. Our first daughter was when born when I was 21. In order to survive and pay bills, I worked the night shift and my husband worked days. Since my step-son was in school and our daughter was a newborn, I ended up being awake in a catatonic state for 18-20 hours a day.
I ate to stay awake.
A lot.
And so began my "real" struggle with weight.
When my daughter was 9 months, we moved from IL to AZ. I didn't know anyone, but adjusted to our new home, and got pregnant with my son.
After my son was born in 2001, I started my dieting regime. I tried Metabolife, Herbalife, Apple Cider Vinegar, some Chinese tea, Weight Watchers, Curves, and even Isagenix for a week or 2.
Yeah, the diet market made thousands off of me, and I failed to complete each and every weight loss attempt. This is me in 2003 at my brother's wedding.
I am in the purple...why did ANYONE allow me to wear that dress?!?! (as a side note, all the kids there are mine! Aren't they cute?!)
Anyway, so as you can see...I had gained a lot of weight, and wasn't doing a very good job of losing it.
I hit an all time personal best (worst) at 254 pounds, but it never stopped me from trying to lose. My problem was, and still is, that I get successful losing 10-20 pounds over time, but in 2 months, I'd gain 20-30 back.
In 2005, at my all time high, I got pregnant with my last daughter. I'll never forget my OBGYN telling me that I was way too fat. Every time I went in for a check up, I was reminded and scolded for my weight. That was the ONLY pregnancy that I watched my weight with, and when I had my daughter, I was actually 10 pounds less than my pre-pregnancy weight.
After my daughter's birth, I knew that losing weight was possible. I did my best to watch my eating. My motivation? My sister's wedding. There was NO WAY I was going to do a repeat of my brother's wedding photos.
No. Way.
In addition to healthy eating, I used to work out a lot. I joined a gym, did Nutri-Systems and then Jenny Craig. By the time her wedding came around, I had lost a total of 40 pounds...in about 11 months. Here is our picture at her bridal shower & me with my youngest at the wedding.
So, fast forward to today...I've been able to keep MOST of the weight I lost off, but feel like a yo-yo when I step on the scale. Try as I may, I cannot seem to dip below the nasty 200 number or freaking size 18 pants. It drives me crazy.
So, when I heard my Aunt telling me how much faith she has in Isagenix, I thought I'd give it another try. After all, in all honesty, I didn't give it a fair shot 10 years ago when I tried it, and I defiantly didn't have a personal coach to help me when I needed it.
Today I am more mature. More determined. More controlled. More deserving.
Today, I truly believe that I am worth the effort. ME. I am worth the end goal and I deserve to be healthy and happy. Of course for my kids and husband, but also for ME.
So, here is the last of my before pictures. I feel confident and determined that I will never cringe at my picture again as I do so to every single one in the past.
This WAS me struggling with my weight.
I cannot wait to show you how I look in 6 months!
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